The PastBefore I even started playing Eve I’d begun to garner some respect for the weird spaceship game that my other half kept raving about. Then I tried it, and dam I tried hard, but ended up quitting several times.
And yet, as I returned to the pretty lights of
WoW and
LOTRO, I still knew in my heart that Eve was probably the best MMO I had ever come across.
When I finally discovered pvp in New Eden I fell in love with Eve Online completely. This was the most grown up, interesting and intricate game I had ever played. I got to know Eve on a whole new level. I was even inspired to try my hand at writing a blog.
The PresentThen I grew up a bit.
The shiny wrapper started to wear off and I noticed new things about Eve and CCP. Not good things. Cracks, flaws, annoyances, empty promises, even lies. Things that never bugged me in the past were now pushed to the forefront of my attention. I started to get fed up with CCP.
I still loved playing Eve you understand, but the environment in a wider sense stopped enchanting me in the way it once did, in fact it started getting on my nerves somewhat. The result of this was that every time I sat down to write a blog post a whole bunch of angry diatribe would come out.
I hate reading rants, unless they are funny rants. But my rants were not funny and I did not want to litter the blogosphere with this banal crap. This, combined with an ever more demanding real-life, left me wondering, was it time to put down the proverbial pen and paper?
I've been soul searching on this subject for a while.
A ChallengeSo today I am minding my own business checking some emails when I notice a new blog comment...
Welcome to the EVE Blog Pack. If you could write a little something about it, I'd appreciate! Cheers! HOLY PANTS BATMAN I'M IN THE BLOG PACK!
*cue heavenly music*The blog pack, as you probably know, represents some of the finest and most active Eve bloggers out there. The hand-picked "short list" of 40-ish blogs is managed by blogging extraordinaire CrazyKinux and is filled with capsuleers writing entertaining and informative posts on all aspects of Eve. Pirates, ninjas, wormholers, scary hardcore 0.0 folks, industrialists... guides, stories, in-character tales, politics and opinions. It’s all in the blogpack.
...and now there is a little ole Faction War nublet on the list too.
The FutureCrikey CK you sure know how to pick your moments. What do I do now?
I returned my thoughts to the past, and why I decided to start blogging in the first place. I read through my early posts from last year and these two sentences stuck out and hit me in the face, like a big hitty sticky thing:
…here I am practicing some self-discipline…and
…I finally began to feel I had something to give back to the community…I wanted to be accountable to something. I wanted a personal exercise in sticking with something that I had started because I am terrible for giving up on things real life. If I stop now I’ll have failed again. My blog is not even 1 year old yet.
But I also wanted to help and entertain others along the way. And I still want to do this now.
So. I’ve made my mind up. And here is my promise to anyone reading this. I promise to HTFU, get on with it and stop being an emo. I shall continue to do what I’ve been doing here, and any whiney posts that need to come out I shall try and construct in a helpful and entertaining manner... or failing that I’ll put some rude pictures in the middle of it all.
Thanks very much to CK for putting me on the list. I hope I can entertain some new readers and fly the flag for FW noobs everywhere.
And many thank you's to whomever it was that requested my addition. I think Lexx and
Laedy might have put a word in for me, so thanks a bunch you two now I can’t bloody quit! xx
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